Life is very bizarre and interesting at present. I'm now into week 19 of this process and something shifted quite quickly just over 2 weeks ago. As in I kid you not, overnight, strangers began seeing me as a guy..."hey mate!". This was quite a disconcerting moment in time, where my instinct was to speak up and say "well actually no I'm not quite yet", most occurrences were too brief to speak this but goodness me that was quite a shock for a day or two. All of a sudden it hit me again (as I forget often & just go about my day as normal) I'm actually doing this & the voice inside my head saying "wow so soon?!?!, am I ready for people to see me as this?!?! I'm not sure, being known as Anna is still more than fine, I like that name too, oh this is really strange".
The peripheral world is now seeing me as a completely normal everyday male and that to me feels SO far off what is truth. AND that was just the beginning...since then a few other quirky situations have presented themselves:
1. I have attracted some interest from gay men (ah wow! yep scary & of course a little flattering, we'll get to my preference in a partner in a later post)
2. My credit card of course has Anna on it & when I use it now I get questioned as to why I am using a credit card with the name Anna (sigh!). Legally I believe I can't officially change my gender and name on legal documentation until after a surgery (again more to come on this) which won't happen until much later this year so for the next few months...fun fun!!
3. Unisex toilets are my best friend at the moment! I get some very strange looks and the occasional question if I use a female public toilet. Today at the gym was one such occasion! After a weird encounter it ended fine, with this gorgeous older Indian lady actually having the courage and taking the time to come find me later and ask if I was ok and was there a reason I had to be in the women's loo - as in was it a safety issue. I explained & she was fascinated and then proceeded to impart lovely motherly advice about making sure I stay in safe environments and be around supportive friends and family. I have a lot of respect for her and making more friends is always a plus in life!
Next video post coming soon...a bit of a different flavour to mix it up a bit!
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