Just one of the Lost Boy's from Peter Pan some days

Them 

I owe you an apology. I'm so very sorry I didn't take your work more seriously. You caught me off guard (when you asked to postpone) and I think you may have mistook my overwhelmingly desire to see you for rigidity. I was gutted at not seeing you on Saturday and experiencing what would have been heaven on earth. Either way, your text made me think that I'm far more interested in you than you are me. What is clear to me is that we are both very strong willed and very stubborn. Perhaps, in the end, not the best combination. I accept the damage has already been done. Please can you find it in yourself to forgive me for being a complete and utter dickhead. I don't want any bad blood between us. And we can leave it at that. Of course, I meant what I said, you will be a shining Star

Me

Apology accepted but also thank you. That needed to happen as a lesson for me, you were a fresh and lovely reminder that I am no where near ready or have the capacity in my life for anything more than what I thought was to be a night of newness with everything else I have going on. My life is my work and my love that I'm creating right now. It's difficult to comprehend if you're not me I know, but I've lost my life as it was; family, partner, friends, career, money, everything you're connected to yet I'm still here alive, it's hard, I'm just good at making it look easy. There is a reason why 30% of people who transition commit suicide, if you don't have a huge deep love to live through all that, you don't survive. So when something to do with my project calls for my attention, I have to give it, it's not artist narcissism but survival. I'm humbled and grateful that you feel what you do, truth for me unfortunately is I don't feel much for anyone right now, my heart is closed. I've copped so much from so many this past year - family right through to strangers, that I can't help but stay that way until I get these projects out to find some sort of self, strength and purpose beyond all of that. I apologise that hurt, never was my intention. I'm sure we'll stay in contact. Thanks again for your message, I appreciate it.

Them

Thank you, thank you, thank you. I'm so very grateful you can forgive me. I can only imagine how very difficult things have been. You are simply amazing to me! If I can give you any happiness I would be honored. I hope we can be friends. I would like very much to support you in that way. I look forward to your show. I hope to be in the front row. Let me know if you want to talk. I'm a good listener.