Okay so bit of an update on this topic as I personally find it to be quite a funny topic in my world ... unfortunately and still for now I keep the majority of it private as at the end of the day as much as the world is 'accepting' of someone like me, I still very much feel the need to protect anyone close to me based on any stigma / society judgement they'd face by 'god forbid' being near to me or shockingly ... even closer !! gah! ;-)
Anyway so with that in mind, I have to bring in one of my favourite quantum physicist quotes here ... that old ball and chain of a one that's been around forever that you may have experienced for better or worse ... the "nothing ever disappears it just changes form" one ... usually I always get reminded of this one when I'm happy someone I personally find annoying has finally left my world, only for another one to show up with similar traits and it's like OMG truly?!
But not that I find this case with 'my' women of course! people I think do wonder, wow how does someone like him find someone to be with ? ... rest assured I'm all good, irrespective of whether I have a 'someone' around me or not at any particular time, I do LOVE my me time more and more and more ... I just think bachelor life is for me sometimes; you know freedom, quiet time, wake up when I want to, TV remote mine, food choice mine ... just why would you ever go back I think somedays (shhh! I didn't really just say that ... swear!)
But yeah the physics quote, I just tend to find I always seem to come into contact at whatever point with some strong powerful female force of an energy that commands presence (like cue from the wings) at EXACTLY the right time for what I need; it's quite uncanny ... sometimes its sexual, sometimes it's not and you know that's all good, it is what it is ... I've been told before I have this knack with connections (I don't say that arrogantly as I've never said that nor do I feel that way but others do ... some charisma or something ... I don't get it as to me I'm just this weird looking guy thing that's sometimes kinda okay looking depending on if I can get hair product right at the time (a touch and go issue).
So my current conclusion on all this is that I just think the world is full of tribes, I do! Even today, just disguised in a society that operates and dresses and appears the way it does, huge tribes, loads and when we're lonely it's because we're missing our tribe.
My tribe people, as I say, tend to me these grand strong female presences that arrive at EXACTLY the right moment, always to my relief to help with some issue I'm struggling with (whether it be physically, emotionally, legally, mentally, artistically or employmently) and thank god really! It's always necessary!
I was in an physical acting workshop a few years ago getting a body correction attended to and once the correction was done her comment was "oh my goodness look at your body, you hold the world on your chest, finally one of my people, great to have you hear" ... I wasn't quite sure what she meant at the time but I do now ... I think we really all do have our people that we are here for and we instinctively gravitate toward one another and generally you recognise this by those you feel repelled by ... as in they ain't your people.
The best way I can highlight this is with a current recent interaction I've had. Not long ago, I bumped into a 'female kind' in a theatre foyer and it was only via retreating to Facebook the next day did we have a proper interaction (love social media) "so hi it's been forever but did I see you at the XYZ yesterday" ... "yes I was wondering if that was you" ... so we hit it off again from there after maybe 10 years or so, not that we were even that close back then.
Safe to say there's been a BIG reason for that connection that's lead onto a LOT of necessary positive things since that I can't yet speak of but hope to in another few years. And only this past week did this really hit home as we were sitting in a very nice inner Sydney swish proper corporate restaurant discussing "professional matters" and all of a sudden the conversation shifted to a place I don't usually talk about casually over dinner and that was to our spiritual beliefs and practises. So anyway it turns out we've both privately undertaken our own spiritual modality practises and training (loose term) over the past few years but had completely similar experiences ... in summary 'gotten a lot out of it, fought with the leaders constantly, and have had these absolutely weird random moments'. For her, the respective guru dedicated their practise in one of her retreats, started to literally move out of the picture in the Shrine room toward her.
To someone like me I find this absolutely HYSTERICAL! To my comment "yes XYZ-ji was probably trying to leave the room too" (stop it Andy!) but to the point, people come to these retreats time after time thirsting for some big spiritual awakening, and this gorgeous soul walks in and has this great experience first time much to the anxiety of a lot of other longer term delegates ! boom! in that moment I was like YES this is definitely one of my tribe! And then we went back to our important corporate human rights matters!
SO my point being, if you're out there and you're lonely, just keep looking for your TRIBE, I promise they're out there, it's all divinely worked out and I'm sure we're all just finding each other again from ancient Cleopatra or Joan of Arc kinda times! I think I must have been some really bad man that burnt witches at the stake to have this life swear to god but whatever! I keep walking so just do the same, stay strong and always be true to yourself with the people you keep company with !!
Dedicated to all my 'warrior women' ;-) ... you know who you are! muah!